I just want to call her MINE

It is 2 AM eastern time on Wednesday September 10th. Today marks the end of the 30-day after court wait. I have no clue why I am awake considering I am so tired. I think it is because I am very very axious about what the morning may bring. I just want to know that she is MINE. I won't feel totally comfortable until she is home but I atleast want to know that the judge signed off. I am slightly terrified that he will have gone on vacation, again, or that there will be some other problem. I haven't sent away for the Kaz visas and haven't paid for the tickets because we want to make sure our dates are pretty secure. They can always change but after the sign-off I will feel much better.

I'm not sure if they sign on the 30 days or just sometime there after. It is already noon on Wednesday over there. It would be interesting if he signed on Thursday. You see, Thursday is 9/11 and 7 years ago I was working in Soho and living in Brooklyn. Needless to say, it was a day that changed my life. What a change my life has taken since then. In 7 years I have changed jobs 4 times, graduated college, gotten married, bought a house, become a stepmom, moved to a new state and had a whole bunch of other firsts. In a way it would make it hard to have this new positive memory on a day of so much pain but in another way it would add something exciting to a day I don't look forward to.

As I asked Maria today, Will I finally believe she is actually coming home when she is here?

Elizabeth